today, i had work. most of what i do nowadays is work- schoolwork or actual work. the thing is, my job isn't very busy. i'm a wannabe neet, but the job i have right now isn't really bad. i serve ice cream in the morning- usually i come in around 10, and leave around 3. no one wants ice cream that early. i do, but i only get it because it's free for me. it's november though, and it's early, and no one else gets ice cream, so i basically sit on the counter for 5 hours and do nothing. last weekend i spent basically my entire shift just watching hazel's youtube videos. point being i get paid an okay amount and i don't do a lot of work so it's whatever.

tonight, though, i'm gonna see my friends in an xmas play. literally called "xmas the musical." i think it's a little early for a play like that, but whatever? i'm just happy i have friends in college at all. i was basically entirely isolating myself at the beginning of the semester and didn't talk to any of my online friends- i actually had a massive breakdown and unfriended a lot of them. but my friends at college are fun. they helped me bleach my hair, which i've always wanted to do, but couldn't for monetary reasons & my mom being worried about how it would effect my hair. they're all autistic cosplayers. i wanna get more into cosplaying, but y'know, money stuff. next paycheck is probably going towards nekopara volume 2 and a figurine. maybe manga. if i get paid more than i'm expecting to get paid, i might indulge in a kanade sweatshirt (i really want one. kinnie moment.)

i don't really know what the play is about. no one has told me. i'm just here to support my friends, pretty much, and i guess that's enough. it's something to do with my night. though i could have spent it coding... oh well. the ordeal of being known or something.

i. uh. have had a lot happen. you may have noticed that site updates literally died for like a week- it's finals season, firstly, so i've been working on those a lot, but i also rather unexpectedly moved. i don't really wanna get into it here but i've had a lot of dormmate trouble going on in my personal life and this past friday i pretty unexpectedly packed up and moved to a different dorm. i have my own minifridge now and my own microwave which is nice, and i feel more comfortable having my friends over. my dormmate also seems nice, though she actually left for thanksgiving break the day i moved in so we haven't met in-person yet, just over text. again, though, seems nice.

me and my one boyfriend, drift, not deadlock (the one with his own neocity), have been playing some games together recently. i've been replaying OFF for him cause it's one of the only games that my computer can run, but i really love that game. rpgmaker games are so very special to me. OFF especially was super formative or me- it's sort of crazy to think that i first played it in middle school and now i'm in college.

me and my friends went to the mall today. i got a fuecoco plushie and the belibolt squishmellow- the iono kinnie in me couldnt leave without him. he's so sweet. i have named him wubzy.

honestly, as i'm typing this i'm really tired. i was in a call with drift and some of his friends and it was really overwhelming. they're really nice, i'm just not used to group calls anymore, so it was a little bit much. also they were like talking about games i don't know anything about. don't tell drift, i felt a little out of place. they are really nice though. tomorrow i just have my psych class in the morning and then i'm done until next monday. thanks, thanksgiving break.

i met my dormmate recently. she's really nice. it was a little awkward at first cause i wasn't sure how to talk to her, but she's been very kind. i also found out my uni has a colour printer, which is really awesome, cause my last community college didn't have one, and colour ink is really expensive so the family printer back at home is always out. i was able to put up some really cute pictures above my bed- mostly my dress-up darling, komi can't communicate and nekopara. they're all really cute pictures, i really love them. and honestly i really like being on the 8th floor. it was a little intimidating at first but it's really chill up here, and i'm not scared of heights. it's kind of nice to be up with the clouds.

i haven't done much recently. i went to my uni's gym- the gym membership is included in tuition so like, okay- and i've been trying to get better at dancing. i have zero rhythm and i've never been good at dancing, but i really want to be good at dancing. i've been learning darling dance on and off for a few months (i still suck at it) though i also started learning newly edgy idols (minori pov) which is actually a lot easier. i'm still not good at it but i've been doing my best. i really wanna cosplay kanade, but i dunno when i'm gonna have the money for that. money has honestly been really tight recently, and i get my last paycheck for the year tomorrow. if i get some christmas money maybe i'll get the kanade cosplay, but i dunno. i'll think about it.

at the moment, i'm re-listening to my comfort video essay (lol.) it's hbomberguy's pathologic video. something about it is really special. i was gonna go to kaffeestunde, which is just like, a thing where all the german students hang out and talk in german, but... i dunno. it starts in 9 minutes and i don't even have pants on right now. maybe i'll go and show up late, maybe not. it's really cold here, though, so i dunno. i kinda don't wanna leave my dorm. weather says it's 44 fahrenheit right now, but i don't believe that. it feels colder.